I find this opportunity ironic as I am far from feeling spiritually stable these days... but God opened the door and, trusting Him, I walked through.
We are currently making our way through Beth Moore's "Stepping Up" study which takes a deeper look at the psalms of ascent (Psalms 120-134). I truly hope that God is using this study to teach the girls a little more about His character... but I am also find that He is using it to draw me into scripture, giving me an anchor even when my heart feels at sea.
Psalm 126 is our focus this week. In his commentary, James Limburg describes the perspective of the psalmist as coming "from a people who are living between the times, between a good time remembered and another good time hoped for." Scholars believe that the psalm refers to the Israelite exile to Babylonia.
Exile... sometimes that is how I feel. Separated from all that is familiar and comfortable. Denied the blessings that I so desperately long for. Knowing that this place is not my Home. Missing Noah.
Beth Moore asks, "Have you seen wonderful works of God in the past but could really use one now?"
Yes. A hundred times yes.
As I read her question, tears came unbidden to my eyes. (Particularly embarrassing while I sat in a crowded Starbucks this Saturday morning.) I kept reading, hoping to find wisdom for surviving in this "in between time." Here is the next paragraph:
Take heart that God sees you and is moved by your plight. He still performs wonders. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Profess you belief to Him daily that you will see the evidence of His gracious hand and, like the psalmist David, stay confident of this: "I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD" (Psalm 27:13-14).Now the tears flowed freely. As you may know, that verse graced the prayer cards we passed out after Noah's diagnosis. It was a verse I clung tightly to during his life. It is a verse that God brought me back to this morning to remind me of His perfect plan and promises.
"Those who sow in tears will reap with shouts of joy." Psalm 126:5