Thursday, August 12, 2010

August is a hard month

August is a hard month.

It is really, really, really hot. I don't really want to leave the house but I am becoming a little stir crazy.

Josh started pre-season last week. Which means that, after having him around much more than normal for the past few months, he suddenly is gone 12+ hours a day.

It is back to school time. Which makes me really miss setting up my classroom and the excitement of starting a new year with new students.

And then there is my little Noah man.
On Monday, it will be 2 years since we had to say goodbye to Noah.
On Tuesday, he would have turned 3 years old.
I try to imagine what he would have been like as a 3-year old... what he would have looked like, what his favorite toys would have been, how he would interact with his brother. I replay all the decisions we made during those hard days and wonder. And I let my heart ache.

I miss my sweet boy.


Heather S. said...

Praying for you today!

Anonymous said...

Rats. Just rats. My heart hurts for you, Deb. Prayers of joy for the life Noah lived and prayers of comfort and support for the loss you must live with each day. Linda

sara luke said...

I'm praying for you this week, too.

Amber Sidwell said...

Oh Deb, I just cannot find the words to comfort your aching heart. Please know that my heart is heavy for you. I will be praying for you and Josh. There is so much doubt in the world, but heaven and god's love is not one of them. Big hugs to you!

Anonymous said...


Your blog makes me laugh and makes me cry. Today I cry. Praying for all of you. Miss you guys!

Kim K.

Sara D. said...

Oh, Deb. Thinking about you. I know how hard these days will be. Give Eli a good squeeze, and know we are definitely praying for Jesus to hold your sweet family REALLY tight this week.

Kirsten said...

I'm so sad for your loss and the deep ache of your heart and find myself crying for your grief. Praying that God would continue to heal and bring to mind the joy and blessing that Noah brought to you during his short life.